we take our time turning off memories when you consciously realize you can do nothing about it no more.
its giving up. i gave up not because i didn't care anymore. no, its the stop point when i really have to stop trying.

well, when love should unite us together.. but we're apart.
its obviously not love.
or am i the one who pretending that i'm the one who love you?
and you not?
well, i get it. i'm stupid? maybe.
haven't move on yet? definitely.

i'm in my office now. after all the tasks and charges, i decide to open my email and create this blog.
i know i'm such a loser that i can tell everything here but i couldn't say it to you right away.
plus, you just made a distance. big distance and it really far. i can't even reach you.
and i can't even reach me. myself. i miss you so bad, you know.
i miss talking to you. i miss us.
i miss your smell.
i know i have to let you go.
i shouldn't think of you.
i'm so selfish when i need to see you.
but there the fact. i can't see you. i can't meet you.
i just can't.
that disability about you just make me crazy.
can you control yourself when you miss someone?
i can, i locked myself in my room.
i cried out loud without no one could hear.
this is me..
the girl who misses you so much right now.
in my cold office, dear you...

hi, world...how are you? i heard some disaster in our beloved earth. hope it will fade away soon. just like my memories in my mind. all about you it will fade away soon.. hopefully. amin.